The Uber driver circles the block, searching for a parking spot, until my anxiety about the bill reaches stomachache levels. The pills ought to have already kicked in, but I suddenly can't bear sitting in that car a second longer and tell him just to drop me anywhere. At the curb, puddle water seeps through the soles of my graduation-day heels, and I grab my skirt to keep the hem from dragging as I jaywalk between blaring headlights. The exhibition hall is a temple to the arts, filling up with lines of polished devotees who stand poised as works of art themselves, every inch of them glimmering and shining and perfectly posed, calling out for adoration. See me. Recognize me. Acknowledge me. Even in my newest dress, I'm outclassed. If I linger too long on the steps, one of the real guests might mistake me for a valet and hand me their keys, so I dart inside. I slip through the entrance, which is marked with Kera's handiwork in the form of a glimmering snowstorm. Each feather-white snowflake is unique, and they fall so close, so softly across the threshold that I'd swear I could feel their biting cold upon me, the breath of their presence on my lashes. A white fox darts underfoot and peers out from the shadows of the foyer, and I can't help but wonder how she formed its paws and whiskers so perfectly. Would anyone guess she'd only seen the creatures on public-access TV, in a cramped apartment in a steel-and-concrete forest? I detour to the refreshment table, where I claim a long-stemmed glass of champagne to brandish before me, declaring my role as "guest" rather than "hired help" more visibly than any name tag could as I wander through the entrance galley. A nearby waiter keeps an eye on my drink, obviously waiting for the liquid to dip below half-empty so that he can swoop in to refill it, but though I occasionally press my lips to the rim, the glass remains full; I know better than to mix prescription meds and alcohol. "The immersive arts can be neither learned nor inherited, and that is what sets its creators apart from other artists." A soothing voice reaches me, and I realized I've triggered the auditory immersion of a nearby piece. It's a self-portrait of a man in a tweed suit, sitting on a rocking chair with a pipe in his hand. Black whiskers bristle out from his face, and his expression is dull, as though he's looking out from behind the frame and finding himself bored with all he sees. The painting itself is nothing impressive —the shading on the man's face seems off somehow, and one of his hands is disproportional— but the voice is clear and compelling, and it sounds like he is speaking directly to me. I can see (or rather, hear) precisely why the curator included this piece; it's the finest example of auditory immersive arts I've seen, without a hint of echo or lag. "Though some do not develop their skill until later in life," his voice continues, "no manipulation of genes will spark an ability where none exists. Nor will any amount of prodding or practice strengthen that which is weak. Those who possess the gift are truly unique, set apart from the masses—" "Auditory?" a woman beside me mutters to the man on her arm. "Intriguing. They're rather a rarer immersion-type, aren't they?" "Mm-hmm. The new curator brought it in just last fall," the man replies. "Before that, this whole hall was filled with nothing but olfactory-types. Scratch-and-sniffs, all of them." The derogatory term jolts me and I stiffen. "Sounds nauseating." The woman scoffs. "Yeah? You know what's really nauseating?" I say. The wine glass sits loosely in my hand now, and I can tell that the pills have kicked in, at least enough to untie my tongue and make me throw caution to the wind. "How awful your nasty bathrooms would smell without the tacky tulip murals you insist we paint everywhere." "Pardon me?" The woman blinks at me, shocked. "Just because there are more of us olfactory artists doesn't mean we are any less gifted or less important," I continue. "You ought to pay us more, not less than all the other immersion-types, for all the work involved in covering up your stenches." The couple stares, uncomprehending. Unwilling to comprehend. I turn away, knowing I've gone too far, said too much, and here, on this night that isn't about me anyway. "Ladies and gentlemen, Sekera!" I turn from the self-portrait as she takes the stage. She's all smiles and waves to the politicians and diamond-dipped heiresses and the horrified couple beside me who wouldn't have looked twice at her before that day when she pulled a dragon from the wall of graffiti— not a wavering mirage or a child's pop-up-book image, but a dragon so realistic it sent three fire departments scrambling and rocketed her to dizzying fame. I can't focus on her speech, not with the cocktail of anger and hurt and sedatives sloshing around in my stomach. Not with that awful couple muttering beside me. Not with Kera standing up there, all dolled up like a toy, glamorous and cool and in control almost beyond the point of recognition. It's coming at me again, that primitive fight or flight response that leaves my mind in fractures and my neurons frayed. That makes me want to crawl out of my skin. The crowd's suddenly too loud, the lights too bright, and I know I need to get out of here before that downward spiral catches me. I choose flight.
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